Autism? Luck? Just me?

Me wrote something about traveling these days, when you’re me. And honestly, I’m not sure what’s what. You tell me.   Et comme toujours (ou presque), c’est bilingue.

Gaps diet : year 3

(Français sous la photo) 3 years ago I was in NZ, sick like a dog, in so much pain in the guts that I couldn’t imagine eating another bite ever again. Trapped in a body that wanted me dead, with no way out. And I started the Gaps diet (for autists : no dairy and…

Allistics “don’t” mean it (but they do).

My mom came to visit recently. The usual circus : we had a few tense days, trying to adjust to each other. We failed, as usual, and fought, as usual, then had an open heart conversation (OHC), as usual. I always thought we failed to adjust because we’re different, and we live so far apart, and see…

Brave?

I recently realized that the past few years I had been trying too hard to mingle with people, with the result of loosing the sense of self, struggling to find a meaning to my life, and feeling like an utter, total, misfit. Plus, well, the failure of the Mission itself, of course. Why did I…

Intérêt spécifique – Version française

Les enfants autistes sont connus pour souvent avoir une forte fascination pour un domaine particulier, parfois plusieurs ayant un point commun. Toute jeune, j’étais fasciné-e par le fonctionnement des choses naturelles. Je m’absorbais dans l’observation des plantes, des insectes, des écorchés… Assigné-e femme à la naissance, autiste dotée d’une capacité d’analyse et d’une sensibilité au-dessus…

Being sick Vs Exhaution

I am currently in the 5th day of a period of sickness that started as what we might call “my exhaustion syndrome”, and turned into a proper labellable sickness (aka sinusitis). The exhaustion syndrome I used to have regularly before the GAPS diet. Once a month minimum, I would work too much, or eat too…

2 avril : tous autistes !

2 Avril, on y est ! C’est la journée (de sensibilisation) à l’autisme ! Les GRANDES questions : -> L’autisme, c’est quoi ? Le système nerveux central qui fonctionne différemment. Y’a des composantes génétiques, environnementales, et du système digestif. Oui m’sieurs-dames. Même si vous trouverez difficilement ces informations en france(-ais). De votre point de vue,…

Nobody’s fault – Part 1 : Loneliness and love at first sight.

I grew up knowing that every adult was perfect at what they were doing. Whether that was raising kids or teaching mecanics, being a headmaster in a school or making cheese. If it was what they were doing, they were the ideal at it. I knew that like kids raised in religion know deep inside…

Autism is a zoo

Oftentimes people ask me what it is, or what it’s like, to be autistic. I always give different answers, and I’m always telling the truth. The thing is, I know they want a quick, ready-to-use definition they can identify to and imagine they understand me with. But there is no such explanation. So sometimes, I…

Bin non (Things I don’t do)

Hier j’étais à un marché de Noël, pour soutenir une amie. J’aime pas les marchés de noël, c’est bruyant. Mais j’aime bien soutenir les amis. 🙂 Mon amie m’a présentée à un collègue. Il était sympa, amical, blagueur. C’était un bon moment. Jusqu’à ce qu’il me dise “Haa! C’est vachement mieux avec un sourire!” Je…

Banartichoke

Live my life with food. *Absurd-not-so-absurd*